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I did not start off the year of 2009 well. I've been in an ill mood all day because of something I overheard my mom saying to her friend on the telephone.
Apparently my mom is happy that I'm going back to school tomorrow because I "eat all of [their] food" and I "pick out what [I] want to watch on the tv."
I don't know, it just really bothered me. I didn't know that I was a burden. I didn't think that I hate that much food, to be honest. I eat one meal a day, thanks to my sleeping schedule. How is it possible that I eat so much?
And I didn't know that I hogged the tv. Once again, my sleep schedule allows me to stay up very late, basically all night. I'll play on the Playstation 2 in the living room after my parents have gone to bed. Plus, my mom and I watch the same shows anyway so I don't understand how I hog the tv.
It just hurt my feelings. I haven't talked much today and much to my dismay my parents noticed. They've been asking what's wrong.
I don't want to say anything because usually when I do my mom will say something about how stupid I'm being and to get over it.
I know that's what I should do. No use in crying over it.
But why is it bothersome?
Pretty simple. I basically worship my mother.
I tell her everything. Well, mostly everything. The rest she figures out herself.
For her to say that she's happy that I'm leaving, well, it upsets me. I wish I could hide it better.
David has told me that I can't hide my feelings. That I wear my emotions on my sleeve.
That's usually awesome because I'm often happy and energetic. If I get down, there's no way for me to cover it up.
Oh well. I'm a pansy.
Amanda came over last night to celebrate New Year. We talked. A bunch. I mostly talked. She watched the Carolina game. lol I've been cooped up all break, so it was nice to just conversate with someone and tell them everything that's been going on the past semester.
I made Amanda a snoogin with Carolina blue and white. My mom made her some fudge. It was delicious. A good chunk of it was gone before Amanda left.
I had a glass of wine. My mom had said that if Amanda drunk anything that she was going to have to stay the night. What she didn't say is that if she had drunk a few hours before leaving, then she would be fine. Boooo...
Jared called over and over and over again. He just really wanted to talk to Amanda, I imagine. One time he was talking while at the toilet. Yeah, Amanda hung up promptly. lol
I finished croceting all of my hats for my campers. I need to wash them tomorrow at some point. I was going to personally drop them off on my way to school, but the houses are so far away. There's a Mt. Airy, King, Advance, Wake Forest, Raleigh, and Chapel Hill. It would be cheaper to just mail them.
My sister's... uh... boyfriend... got into a car accident. He's at the hospital. He's not in good shape, but he's alive. +yay+* He broke both collar bones, punctured one lung and collapsed the other, cracked about 4 ribs total, broke his sternum (breast bone) and his clavicle (collar bone). Hey, my sister wrote the e-mail. I just thought that I would point that out.
I get to see David tomorrow. I wish I were more excited right now. I'm just in an ill mood... It'll get better though. I hope the old superstitions aren't right about the New Year. They say that the mood you start the year in will be the mood that you're in for the rest of the year.
Fabulous.
If that's true, I'll spend the whole year sleep deprived, tired, and upset.
Laterz
Kenzie
* the +'s are internet signals for sarcasm
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